The kitchen is fully functional, and most things are in place. The bedroom intact, needing a few artwork here and there. The bathroom cozy and clean. Undecided with the desk, where to put it and how to hide the wirings. The living room a mess! No furniture yet, and all the papers and other miscellaneous stuff just all over the floor, guts out. Car parked secure in designated spot down the garage.
Room 903. My new place, a 510 square feet studio in the heart of Japan Town in San Francisco. Work is a 5 minute walk away, groceries and restaurants in view from my window pane, and some of the city high rises, cathedrals, streets, hillside homes, and lots of sunshine complete this panoramic sight.
It is a new day. A new day to live on my own with no roommates for the very first time in my entire adult life. A taste of freedom. Finally. I am scared and at the same time excited of what's out there waiting for me. The possibilities of pursuing my dreams, my passion, my heart. A lot of shifts, continental in intensity, had to take place for this to happen: a recent earthquake at 4 am two days ago, angered and unresolved conflicts from friends rising with the sun at 8 am today, and a whole new empty canvass to paint my life on.
I have my video camera, my digital camera, classes to take, a new and flexible work schedule, a good savings account, and my Life waiting to be lived on a daily basis. I guess I am all set.
I think I have waited long enough working at the "glass merchant's store" (re: The Alchemist). I have enough to take with me and start my journey into the dessert. I will look back for one last time just to say goodbye, and make sure that I have all that I need.
A silent yes...
"Let us go my child. Come to where I have placed your heart and soul.
Next to mine.
The dream world has opened it's door, and you will no longer "dream" of it, you will be a part of it. This is when you know that your dreams are real. Be still. Let all other things go. Let your past stay in the past. I have none other but the bright future to give you. Believe. Know that I have made You and that I trust you. You will be who I made you to be under my guidance, my light, and my love."
I closed my eyes after The Voice spoke...
"Yes Father, I will go. Thank you because after all is said and done, you still love me and believe in me. Not because of what I've said or done, but simply because you are Love, and that you have a plan for my Life.
Let us go from here. My only wish is that you never leave me nor forsake me. Just remain forever in my heart..."
It is 58 degrees Fahrenheit out there and foggy.
